My name is Kristi. I am 27 years young and I used to weigh 250 pounds. I am a mother of two beautiful children, Jae, 6 and Gracie, 3. I have been married to my best friend, Johnny, since May 14th, 2005. I love being a mom. I love being a wife and I love food!! (I'm working on the fitness.) This blog is all about me and my never ending struggle with weight. Enjoy........
I have struggled with my weight from as far back as I can remember. My mom had me when her and my dad were very young. She was 15 and my dad was 17. And my wonderful grandparents were very old school. Still to this day, it's hard for me not to go straight to the fridge when I walk through my grandmaw's front door. They spoiled me beyond no return. I've always thought that having young parents contributed to the fact that I was over weight. Them being as young as they were, I don't believe that they were too concerned with whether or not I had a well balanced meal. As long as I was eating something, that was good enough for them. I remember eating a lot of fast food, chips and dip, cereal and chef boyardee. It was very rare to have a good home cooked meal, until I got a little older. And still then, I ate what I wanted and as much as I wanted, when I wanted it. High fat, high sugar, high calorie, it didn't matter, so that's what I ate. Sodas, sweet tea and kool aid is what I remember, it just didn't matter.
My grandparents were great. I was given anything and everything I wanted. Doughnuts! Krispy Kreme! Hot chocolate! For breakfast! Can you say, sugar overload?? I love breakfast, it's my favorite meal of the day. It was so crazy, when I was little. All my grandmaw had to say was, "Come on NayNay, wake up. We're going to Cracker Barrel." And out of bed I would be.If we didn't go to Cracker Barrel or a fast food resturant, it was a big breakfast at home. I will never forget waking up to the smell of bacon frying in the kitchen. It was great! Then, after we would eat, off to the flea market and yard sales we would go.
My great grandparents live next door to my grandparents, so I was at their house just as much. Breakfast would always consists of eggs, grits, maybe gravy, toast or homemade biscuits, tomatoes and three, yes three different types of breakfast meats. What a breakfast! My pawpaw had to have that every morning. We would be eating breakfast for half the morning. It was great! MawMaw would always cook a good lunch and we would snack all day. Snacks like, orange slices (the candy), chips, and I will never forget their favorite...........butter pecan or cherry vanilla ice cream. Yum-O! And pawpaw always had grape drink in the fridge. Mawmaw would save her yogurt cups to put drink and snacks in so we wouldn't carry off her good cups. And the fact that she would reuse aluminum foil and plastic wrap and plastic bags was crazy to me. lol. After a long day of snacking, she would always cook up an amazing dinner. My favorite, chicken n dumplins, they were the best! She made them from scratch, my paw wouldn't have them any other way. And her green beans, mmmmmmmmmmm! Paw grew them, picked them, she would string them, can them and cook them and we all got to eat them. And I got to help every step of the way. It was wonderful!
As I grew up and grew away, my parents eventually divorced and I stayed with my dad. I tried to take care of him. Cooking, cleaning and paying the bills, but we still ate out a lot. Not long after my mom left, my dad was diagnosed with diabetes. I bought good, low carb foods for him and I wouldn't buy junk food, but he was my dad and I was just a teenager, the man was gonna do what he wanted to do. But still today he takes meds for his diabetes. I feel like he could control it with his diet, but he's like me and he wants to eat what he wants too. But he's happy, and that's all that matters.
I have several family members with high blood pressure, sever diabetes, heart conditions and those that struggle with their weight. These problems exist on both sides of my family. Needless to say, I don't want to live with any of those problems. I pray for strength. Strength to help me stay healthy, to stay fit and live a long healthy life. I can honestly say, that the only problem I have right now, is my weight and making that lifestyle change and sticking to it.
While I was pregnant with my second child, I topped off at my heaviest weight. I weighed 250 pounds. My prepregnancy weight was 232, so I was still pretty heavy for 5 foot 6 3/4 inches. The morning of August 15th, 2008, my water broke and I went into labor with my daughter, Gracie. Immediately we rushed to the hospital anticipating the birth of our baby girl. As the nurse was walking me back to the observation room, she stops me by the scale to ge my weight. As I stood on the scale in excursiating pain, the nurse thought is was amusing that the scale was teetering on 250 and 251. Very annoyed, I blurted out, "250 lady, I'm hurtin'!" And off to the room we went.
I breast feed Gracie for quite a few weeks after I had her. I was pretty luck. The breast feeding actually helped me lose weight this time around. When I went to the doctor for my 6 week check up, I was down to 216! Talk about motivation! I was inspired to keep on losing.
Over the next few months I continued to lose weight. I tried Weight Watchers and it really helped me reach my weight loss goal. Then excitement really set in, especially when I hit 200 and then 190. My doctor was amazed when I went back a year later for my check up and I was down to 190. It almost seemed unreal. I walked every day and I really think that helped move things along. Eventually, I was down to 185. Since reaching 185 I have lost weight, gained it back and continued to flucuate up and down. It can be soooo hard!
I cracked down at one point and said that I was going to lose weight. I walked every day, I cut may calories back to 1200 calories a day, but I felt horrible. I was unpleasant to be around and I was tired all the time. I just didn't feel like myself. That being said, my plan had worked. I was down to 159. I was at my smallest point as a grown adult, geez a teenager. I was happy with my size, but I wasn't happy emotionally. People were always telling me that I looked sick. At that point, I didn't think it was worth it. Like many people, I find comfort in food and food is what made me feel better. So, I ditched the 1200 calories and went back to my old ways. Did I stay 159? Nope, I gained every bite of the weight back and then some. What can I say? I love food! And almost all food. I really love trying new food. There's not much that I don't like. lol.
All of these years that I have struggled with my wight, I have done a lot of research on dieting and exercise. I have the knowledge and the know how to live a healthy lifestyle. I know when, where, how and what. I can answer just about any question you have about food and I'm working on the fitness. :)
I recently joined the gym for like the 100th time. I've always said that I want to run in a 5K marathon. I want to weigh between 150 and 160. I have made it a priority to go to the gym atleast 6 days a week. I will run the entire 5K marathon in April. I will eat what I want, when I want, in moderation. I will not diet. I will be happy with myself inside and out.
The whole reason I am starting this blog is that I know that I have a problem, but deep down inside I don't want to fix it. I know what I should eat, but there is so much good food out there and I don't want to miss out because I'm always on a diet. Just so everyone understands, I want my cake and eat it too! I don't want to live life and miss out on all that good food! I don't know when I'm more depressed, when I'm fat or depriving myself of what I want to eat. And one free day a week, just doesn't work for me. I want to eat what I want, I want to feel and look good in my clothes. I want to be healthy and most importantly, I want to be happy! Life is short and I want to live it.
I hope this blog will help others, as well as help me. I hope it helps me to achieve my goals and stick to my guns. I wan to know if anyone else can realte to these issues that I have. I'll post every day. I'll post how my day has went, what I ate and the exercise that I have done for the day. I will be ope to constructive criticism and to your opinion. Just try not to make me cry. :) Thanks, y'all!
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